Notes to Myself

1. Avoid the negative social structure our society has inexplicably created. People are really, strangely dishonest. I fall victim to it far too often because I see the best in people. I want to like people, I want to help them, I want everyone to be kind and happy. It’s naive, but it’s in my blood like a disease. Even after I’ve been gut-punched by a friend who just jumped ship, or I’ve heard a pal is secretly reveling in my misery, I get back up and get on the trust train again. That is so innately me that it will never change, so the best I can do is to stay away from folks who perpetuate this “it’s kind of trendy to never tell the truth” culture.

2. Friday Night Lights is really, strangely too good and confining me to my bed.

3. Adult decisions, though obviously necessary, are hard. I made the choice to go back to school recently, and I was very unsure of it. When a job offer from interviews-past was made last night, I was surprised to find that I really don’t want to give up this new school-oriented path I’ve chosen. However, the job pays well, and I need money. I just keep staring at my inbox, waiting for the right words to come to me. I know I’ll make the right decision for me, but really, life, WHAT THE WHAT!?

4. Seriously though, why are people so inexplicably joyous about others’ sadness? That’s crazy messed up.

5. Cute pets are really good for comfort. BUT REALLY HARD TO LEAVE.

6. Just because the aforementioned decisions are hard, doesn’t mean I can’t make them myself.

7. Spotify is a god.

8. People are just people. They’re not very great a lot of the time, and I have a hard time accepting that… but I just need to start trying to let it go and focus on the seldom great ones there are. Zen lyfe?

9. Boats n’ ho’s. Or something. I don’t know. I felt like I had many more profound notes when I started this, but now all I want to do is cuddle my Yoda and my boo Netflix.

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4 comments

  1. Schadenfreude. Although why this gets applied to people other than those who desperately deserve it (i.e. people purposefully running red lights and using the carpool lane whilst not actually being carpools getting pulled over by the cops), I do not know.

    I'm sure you will make the correct decision regarding your new job or schooling, and I am rooting for you! I hope your stresses ease soon. *hug*

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